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Hopefully you realize that the only reason I keep my phone in one hand the entire day is in case you call.  I never thought that I would depend on someone like this.

I don't even know you.  It was just one of those chance meetings, or coincidental meetings, or God meetings.  But you make me feel better about myself than most people have before.

Somehow, it feels like you take care of me.  I'm not sure how you do that, though, because we're 394.25 miles away from one another.

But you do.  You make me feel happy, content, safe, valuble, and worth something.

That is huge to me.  

Thanks for just being.


I met a new friend, and he's super great.

I feel like I can talk to him about anything.  He makes me feel safe, and comfortable, and...awesome.

I'm glad that God has a way of giving you new friendships, just friendships, when you especially need them the most.

His timing is always so perfect, even when I feel like He's late, or just a little behind schedule. 


I have been waiting and waiting and waiting for him.  I've been patient.  And I never even knew what was going on.

But now I know.

My timing is never, ever right.  

And why are boys just so confusing?


It's not the first time a book has knocked me off my feet.

But this book opened my eyes to a person I was hiding from...myself.

I see myself the way that everyone else sees me now.

Demanding, insistant, intense.  Not the gentle, caring, inviting girl that God is calling me to be.

It's time for a change.



So I'm singing.  You're playing.

I sing the line "Since you laid down your life, the greatest sacrifice..."

It's a lower note for me, but I hit it.  And all the magic you're making on your bass harmonizes perfectly with my voice.

You glance at me out of the corner of your eye.  

I could spend every day, all day with you.


Being the only female in a band with three boys is a challenge.  Every day, I deal with the male humor, the male bodily functions, and the male attitudes.

I don't why boys always say that girls are the moody ones.

We (the band) met about five months ago.  The boys had known each other forever, and our youth pastor asked them to play so that our youth group could finally have a praise band again.  I have been singing for youth group for about four years now.  Anyway, I met the boys, and we started playing together every Wednesday night at youth group. 

We had a pretty cool sound, and we seemed to get along pretty well.  We had the goofy one on drums, the sarcastic one on bass, and the bossy, older one on lead guitar.  Oh, and me on vocals.

After about two months, the boys started talking about becoming a real band.  They weren't sure if my style of singing was "hardcore" enough for them, but after a while, they decided it was.  They came up with a name, and a producer guy came to listen to us.  

He actually ended up really liking our sound.  Somehow, one thing led to another, and now they're setting up our website, fall tour, and a couple of concerts here and there.

Our first concert is Saturday.  I'm freaking out.

Here's one thing that maybe the boys don't know about me - I get really, really nervous singing in front of people.  

My hands start to sweat.  I start to shake.  I turn completely red.  I get really itchy.  It's horrible.

They've never experienced this side of me because singing at youth group is no big deal...a couple songs, and we're done.

But this..this is a concert.  I'm up there, in front of everyone, and I'm expected to entertain.  It's a crazy, mind-boggling thing.  I'm not sure how I'm going to handle it.

I'm having this horrible premonition that after this concert, the boys won't ever want me in the band again.

I guess we'll see what happens.  But for now, I'll just have to deal with my pre-show jitters.


"All girls are princesses.  Even if they dress in rags, even if they aren't pretty, or smart, or young.  They're still princesses.  We all are."

Being a princess doesn't mean that you are beautiful, perfect, or even royal.  Being a princess means that you are confident, and that you believe in yourself in everything that you do.  It means that you have grace and poise and beauty that comes from the inside, not the outside.  

Webster says that a princess is a woman with supreme power.

Disney says that a princess is a woman with a crown.

I say that a princess is a woman who rules.



"I put red strings on my guitar today. It's pretty sweet. Except one looks pink. And this one...it kind of looks purple."

Then you smile. Your heart-racing, make-me-melt, wonderful smile.

"And look. I'm rocking this sweet v-neck today."

Yes. You rocked that v-neck. Gray and white strips. I noticed it before you mentioned it.

You see me. I know that. I feel that.

But what will you do with what you see?